lost , I guess

I look down into the chasm of life that I created, and cant help to think that the people in my life could have done better. Seems like most people around me are always upset or depressed. It just seems that I could of made life better for them if I had tried harder earlier. I mean I am trying very hard now to make sure everyone is happy, but I think I am really aging because of the stress I place on myself. Oh well all I can do is make sure they have something when I am gone.